..im back..

its been awhile i did not update this page of mine..
sorry everyone..guess im busy with everything surrounding me now..
hows life?hmm life ok..just still need time to get used to this place..love?was broken,but thank god we still can keep it up to this level..love is forgiveness right?no matter how hard it is to forgive,we will still have to do that..past is past 0.o life in kk,hmm kinda complicated..how to survive without fam,money everything that ever comfort me,now i need to go back to the basic...tiffy,no more fragrants for ya,forget the dior,dkny and elizabeth arden..so with all the sexy n hot heels..telan liur jak me here hehehe..i hate it when i sounds so kesian now..but this is real..this is what happen to me now..no more new outfit..shoes..huhuhu dah dah..fasting for 3 years nia..after that can buy everything that i wish for..hehehe i wont promise n i cant promise to update my blog everyday,but i try to make it happen..wish u all the best buddies =)

♥ happy 4th monthsary scooby lalink ♥

HIP!HIP!HOORAY!
listen u pple,this is our(me n hubby) 4th monthsary together,
n i feel so so so so happy hihihi,holding hands till this stage,
im sure we both are proud with what we are today,dear shayang..
i miss u much..in everything i do,everything i said,everytime my heart
beats,every single breath that i make,i miss u..this might sounds crazy to other but its not to me..those who just knw bout us,or those that nvr knw,they wont understand how we feel,how deep we fall for each other,how annoying we act when we quarrel(muahahahaha)but all in all,we just cant help ourself from falling n keep falling n falling,so so so mish u this mmnt..see i wake up this early to wish u n myself happy monthsary.hehehe sounds minta puji ho dear?hehehe hope that this rltnship will always strong and will end up when we die..till death do us apart kn? =) george libau,u r the one who i fall for now..u r the one who understand me..always be there for me..i know this three lil words are often come out from me,but i feels like telling u again that...I ♥ YOU!! haha feels much2 better after yelling it out..rmbr that okie dookie?i have faith in u sunshine..

pls/dear GOD,i wants to thank u for every single things that happened in my life,thank god for all the good things that happened,thank god for ur mercy,u send me an angel to standing next to me n support me in faith,thank god for u meant me n him to be together,if be with him,is what u have plan for me,i will let it be,for u r the most powerful and loving god..this note that i wrote for u here is to show how gratefull i am for all ur blessings..my LORD,can u pls look after him since that he is far from me now?i knw i will be even more far than him after this,n i might bz with study,can u pls gv him patient n strong heart so we will always won in this battle?thanks lord for u willing to hear when i seek for u..i ♥ you LORD =) with whole my heart..tell libau that i love him too yah? hihi xoxoxoxo*

old picx but new edited =)

credits to me that i manage to edit my own photo without anybody help me =)
althought its kinda old fashion to everyone,but i feel proud of myself hehe
like it?do leave a comment ya?
thanks..

..everything will change everyone..

recall back to few years memories,
everybody drives cars when we went out,
except me,i always need a friend to fetch me,
everybody has their own job,but not me,
im still study n i got no money,
some of u,treat me as friend,but deep inside of u,u guys look down on me,
maybe bcause of my race,or maybe bcoz im poor compare to u guys,
thats makes some of u really2 look down on me,but thats ok =)
now,some of u is still working,n some jobless,n some study,
but still can drive ur fam cars,cause you're not pay it by ur own,
n me,still going out by bus,or sometimes with my fam members,
the gap between us is too big,u guys are rich(bcause of ur parents money) but me,still poor,again it ok tiffy =)

believe me guys,everything will change,before u look down on me,after im done with study,u will see,what is rich n what is poor taste like,
atention here,i wont buy a car under my name but my mum who is going to pay for it,
i wont be so fashionable in dressing,hair,jwelleries,but actually my dad sponsor me,
i wont act that way,i wont do that,i wont copy the things that u do now,
cause im much2 better than u,do u knw that?do u realize that?better life will be on my side after i graduate,i will work in malaysia either overseas,each n every one of u will mention my name n u praised me,shud i look down on u guys back??shud i?
i hope that i wont,cause from the day i was born,grandpa n grandma train me,to have humble heart everywhre i go,dont have to show off..old friend,now is time for u to show it all off,after few years it will be my time..let me scream this all out,I JUST HATE U GUYS WHEN U LOOK DOWN ON ME,U R NOT GOD TO JUDGE ME,U SHIT DOG!hehehe feels much2 better after said it out =) its ok tiffy..its ok..ok ok guess im done here,n to all of u,make sure each n every single things that i mention here,u will get it to ur skull n ur expired old fashion brain! =) tata then...

i just want u =)

they said u r not good enuf,
they said u dont deserve me,

u said i've tried my best,
u said im too good for u to have me,

i said u r the one for me,
i said we belong together,

but still this issue exsist between us,
why must u gv a damn care bout what they think?
this battle is about us,we who won it,n we who lose it,
what others said is really not important to our rltnship,
that is what i think,how i wish that u can think of the same too,

counting days to go,
this mmnt i suddenly feels like not going,
not excited compare to b4,
but if i dont go,i will regret,
if im going,i hope that we will still be together,
we will still holding on,love each other just like how it use to be,
3 years dearie,3 years only..


pls/hunny shayang,i miss u much,i mean it.. =)

adorable,kissable,huggable princess!!

this three diff pics from three diff model =p
top:tatia lolia
mid:faith leatitia
bottom:amoi tantek(i dunno her name)

pls/one sweet day i will have my baby with hubby hehehe thats for sure...n i wish that my kids will look even cuter than these babies hehehe i wants to have 10 kids,but hubby said 2 is enough...well,hope its twins then haha =p one boy n one guy...when thinking of having babies in future time,i feels so giddy...but its sweet a....realy cant wait to have my own,ooopps our own baby one day =)

happy birthday to hai gui =)

this is mis jeszica t.y.t,
n 20 years ago,she was born..
this is her blessed n lucky day..
miri next top model ho?
hehehe as days goes by,she looks even hotter n hotter,
with her happy smile on her face,
gal,still rmbr when we sang "my love will get u home" again n again n again till the both of us can memorize the lyrics?hehehe
same goes with "stary2 night"..it was our trip to esplanade,
n i still rmbr,when i mafan u turn back from miri town,to toys world just to get me the bubbles stuff,u were pissed off,but yet u go n get it too..thanks ya amoi..
we did not stick together,we didnt share thousand secret,we aren't so closed compare to b4,but we are still friends rite? =) cant believe that,its been 10 or 11 years we've know each other,studied in diff class,except form 4 n 5..
fight n argued together againts teacher in class..
hahaha what a stupid things to do..but its memorable to me..
oh ya,back to the story,
may this one year older,brings u more luck n stay healthy,
hope u graduate sucessfully n happily ever after with mr wong by ur side =p
enjoy ur blesed day yah?

pls/i knw im not the 1st one to wish u,but i knw im not the last one too..the toughts that count rite?i do rmbr its ur lucky day,n thats what count =p "while others may follow,we choos to lead"hehehehe xoxo for ya hai gui..mwacks!

aku dan kamu

prince n princess are in love

this is real,this is me..

i suppose to scream this out on the 15th this mnth,
but guess im too busy to stick to the comp,
happy 3rd monthsary hubby shayang,
another one month we've face together,
cant believe that we made it till this stage ho?
yah..we are far,but in heart we always together..
i just miss u much,n that feelings grow deeper n deeper day by day..
when we talked bout me cooking for u,
sleeping n hugging each other hehe,
shiok ho dear?hehe i knew it too..
but,its ok..3 years to study,after that can earn money..
n we'll married..that is what we aim for now..
seriously?i did not seek for mercz or luxury house..
all i want is being together with u,drive malaysian made car(i drive myvy,u drive waja or persona) hehe sweet leh..hehehe
well for now,or when we just married,we cant afford to buy expensive car,
we both know it kan bie?but we'll do savings for our future..
hehehek im sure pple will say we are crazy in love now..
another month to go,n i will further srudy in kk..
i will be even more far from u..
n will busy with studies...
but i know u will understand it..
n we'll make it through..
i love u so much baby boy!
this is wo men de yue ding..
wo hen xiang ni lao gong..
hen ai ni..

yours forever,
lao po tiffy..

thankie wankie hubby =)

..i just miss u a lot..

no words can describe it,
its just too much..
n a lot till it feels too heavy to carry..
im alone..n so are u..
we both far from each other now..
but,we belong together =)
that is what we had aite?
there is too much to ask..
but seems like,i dont need the answer..

::they dont love me like how u do::

beloved hubby,things goes smoothly between us these few weeks,
no quarrel,no arguing that hurts us,guess we grow up in settle this kind of things aite?dont u like it dear?i mean at least we did not argue on silly things like what we did..we are in happy mode now..
n i feel weird,when im happy with u,trial always comes on our way,
ex bf want to come back,although he knw that im with u,
its weird when he keep insulting u by saying u r not good ebuf to hv me,
but the truth,he just dont knw how much u apprecite me n understand me,
he can say he is richer that u,n yes he is richer in materials,i agreed!
but in heart,he lose..he just cant love me like how u do,he just cant adore me like what u did,he just cant..
money can never satisfied me,although its precious to all of us..
comfort in heart is what i need..not money to make me happy..
we are seperated by distance,i knw that,u knw that,everybody knw that,
tp lam hati cinta,shayang always here,in me,in my heart,
pelik bie,pelik when i just cant find the reason why i love u,
i knw that i always scream at u when im angry,
i knw i always accuse u hv other gal outside,
i knw it all,i knw my weekness..
but u nvr scream back,u nvr accuse back,n u,u just want me to be who i am..
feels good knowing that,ur parents agreed with this,n it all start when are still friends..i make them happy by being with u..n so do i =)
thank be to god for all his bleesings towards us..
for the humble heart that he gave us..
i dont want any guy,i just want u..
love u so much george libau,cherish this in love relationship so much..
forever love,baby love shayang =)

if there is no more tomorrow for tiffy..

If Tomorrow Never Comes

Sometimes late at night
I lie awake and watch her sleeping
She's lost in peaceful dreams
So I turn out the lights and lay there in the dark
And the thought crosses my mind
If I never wake up in the morning
Would she ever doubt the way I feel
About her in my heart

If tomorrow never comes
Will she know how much I loved her
Did I try in every way to show her every day
That she's my only one
And if my time on earth were through
And she must face the world without me
Is the love I gave her in the past
Gonna be enough to last
If tomorrow never comes

Cause I've lost loved ones in my life
Who never knew how much I loved them
Now I live with the regret
That my true feelings for them never were revealed
So I made a promise to myself
To say each day how much she means to me
And avoid that circumstance
Where there's no second chance to tell her how I feel

If tomorrow never comes
Will she know how much I loved her
Did I try in every way to show her every day
That she's my only one
And if my time on earth were through
And she must face the world without me
Is the love I gave her in the past
Gonna be enough to last
If tomorrow never comes

So tell that someone that you love
Just what you're thinking of
If tomorrow never comes

pls:listen to this song again n again this mmnt,makes me recall back wht happened between me n hubby..its not easy to keep a rltnship stable esp when we are far from each other now..but,i realize,what we need is tolerate n extra attention n care to each other..things did not goes smoothly,but my feelings for u nvr change,instead it grows from a seed to a fruity trees now..my love will get u home baby..really feel glad that i've met ur parents(without u by my side that 4 days 3 nights)hoho cant believe it ya shayang?obvious to see...they like me hahaha =) feels much2 relief after i met them..i just can be myself although they are ur parents which one day i wil call them "daddy n mummy" hihihi thanks god i found u..thank god that he destenied u to gave ur ribs to me so i can use it..for better for worst,we'll always stick together..i just so so so so into u hubby lalink :p

..tonight im leaving..

tonight me n swee kim will take a bus go back to betong..
im helping her with her thesis..
in the same time can cuti2 awhile..
night bus from miri,n will reached betong early morning..
mother in law(future) seems more excited than me..
haha me also excited la..cause i will meet them..
but hubby is not around :( huhu wish u were thre too hubby..
n everythings is perfect..
4 days..hope we'll make it good..
n she can finish her research..
means four days less call n sms from him?!
gosh..wonder how im gonna face it..
i dnt knw how i feel this mmnt..
its feels like im excited,also nervous..
cheh..hehehe scared also..cause 9 hours journey is not short la..
i scared i will vomit in the bus..
sheesh..hope im cool enuf for it..kekeke =P
i knw i might need to cook for them,i knw i cant wear my shorts..
but its ok..hehe still can survive ba...
so no big deal.. =P
gotta miss fb a lot..gonna miss this blog so much..
but i promised,once im back,i will blogging again..
hehehe sure i'll bring lots of stories when im bck..
take care ya?
mwacks2!

♥ happy 2nd monthsary shayang ♥

dear..finally 2 months dh we together..
mmg susah ka maintain two months..
tp we made it can hubby?
nda kisah nma d pdh urg sal tua,
yg penting,we happy bila together..
we fought,we cried,i scream at u,u remain silence,
thanks hubby for always sabar ngau cinta..
ndai urg len yg ulih tahan ngau aku..
ndai urg lain yg ulih brsabar ngau aku,jz nn ya ulih bie..
thanks a lot my sweetheart..
me shayang shayang u so much!
holding hands for two months,hihi happy mat ku..
we'll make it thru till bla2 kn?
we'll build a happy family when the time is come..
once again,happy monthsary shayang!
in god's will,we'll make it thru..forever ♥,
from,♥ ur cinta..

♥ promised happiness ♥

Your reply is still reverberating chaoticly, at this point of time
When I thought of the white doves beside the fountain, the sweetness is scattered
My feelings are inexplicably dragging on, I realised that I still love you
And yet you continue singing this song, pretending that everything is alright
Time has passed and walked away, and there's a choice to be made when it comes to love,You're becoming apathetic and tired, and I cried
You wrote a card describing the unhappiness when you left
Sometimes when love reaches this point, it really hurts
What happened, you're tired, where is our promised happiness?
I understand, so there's no point talking anymore, our love has become bland and my dreams have become farfetched
Counting carefully the times of happiness and unhappiness that you won't let go
I still remember very clearly the feeling of having loved
You stopped waiting; where is oI was wrong; my tears have dried, I have let go, and have regret..
But that musical box containing the past is still turning, and how do I stop that?

~this quote..hubby gve it to me..i feel so sad when reading this..when i knw we madelots of promises together..but then i told him im tired..tired with this rltnship..i shouldnt say that..many times i mention it to him..but hubby..keep asking for another chance..but the one who should ask for a chance is me..not him..he didnt do anything wrong..but it is me who are stupid here..i hurt him by my words..he remain silent..without a word to fight me back..iscream..i yell at him..he is just still him..im sorry..i really need you..when i said i dont want u,i want to leave u..i was so mean..im sorry..i just ♥ hubby..pls dont leave me..

..so called tiffy..

today is sunday...
n im kinda tired..
last night went to alfresco...
this whole day keep on zzz zzz zzz again n again...
crap..went to fos n try some outfit...
but in the end choose not to buy it...
cause i keep remind myself in kl more cheaper hehehe
so just buy in kl then...
two months to go...
need to do lots of savings...
will need extra money when i get thre..
schl fees..accomodation..transport..wah...
headache when i thin bout it hehehe..
nthing much happen this weekend..
seeking for a great day for whole days in coming week..

..exhausted exhausted exhausted..

this is how i feel this whole day..
hell tired and sick of cleaning and everything!
shit!i have to do it alone n nobody help me..
this burden is just too heavy for me to carry alone..
nobody listens..nobody cares..nopbody ask how am i doing..
why?do i look like a slave to u?
i tried to tell u,show it out,scream it out loud..
but yet u still treating me this way..
im human too..just like u..we are family..shoul'd tread me this bad right..
cleaning..cooking..laundry..washing..cleaning..cooking..washing..again n again..
when i felt so tired,i go to my room n try to get some sleep..
im doing this for free..i nvr ask for money from u..
but u nvr appreciate it huh..all u care about is i feed ur kids,clean up all the mess that they made..cook for u..prepare everything for all of u..
no more time for my own..no more meeting up with friends..
my palm,used to be so soft,now can feel it totally changed..
i cried bitterly just now..i talk to hubby..aunty flo..cuzz pheobe..
they listens..they lend their ears..silently,i knw they can feel how much it hurts me..but they convinced me..there will be a better tomorrow..
2 months to go..n i will leave ur house..i will leave this saddist city..
start a new life in new environtment..new friends..
cant wait for that time to come..
god..help me through this one..for i feel so unhappy with how they treat me..
im not a slave..imma 20 years old girl who should'nt carried this weight on my shoulder..i put a smile on my face..every morning..everyday..
i put a mask which is keep on smilling..exactly like a clown..
but behind the mask..im a frown..
=(

:: something is not right ::

there is someting wrong with me..
shit..im sitting here on the floor keep wondering what is it...
dont feels good bout it...
wanna let it out but i scared...
cant sleep...just feels uncofortable...
uneasy...what is this fellings?
can someone tell me?i need to firgure it out...
in the end...i knw that deep down of me,i miss him...
i wish i can let him knw...
cant stand it anymore...i just grab my fon n text him...
short msg saying "i miss u"
n yes red devil,i do miss u...
i cant find whats the reason...
i just hv this feelings in me...
=( so sad this mmnt...
feels like crying...feels like talking to u...
but i dont hv the guts to do so...
damn it...

♥ happy birthday dee ♥

here is our queen of the day...
finally..its ur birthday ho aunty?(young aunty i mean)
hihik grow one year older means getting matured in thinking n action ok?
as we grow old,we bcome closed to each other...
when we are kids,we're not closed maybe distance seperate us..
u in kching n me in miri...
22 this year ho?besai udh ya..
sorry for the delay gift..
its all depending on hubby what to gv u...
i pray that all the pending wishes that u made will come true,in god's will ya?
about the love life matter..just hope u can see how big this world is...
n u,u r still young n pretty...
no worries bout it k babe?
i love u,n i appreciate this family rltnship with ya...
huggies for birthday gal =)

:: happy birthday jo ::

this is one of my closed fried
she known as jo astrid monica
22 this year hehehe
unbelieveable huh amoi?
besar liao lo...
we've known each other since i was spm leavers...
we work together at magic booth...
sounds more like a sister to me...
cause we quite closed..
bah bah make sure u enjoy ur day ok?
me love u =)
be good hehehe mwacks!

♥ happy birthday memek ♥

this is my old fren named hii suk ing =)
sorry gal,for i mention ur full name hahaks
ok ok i've known this gal since we are in form 1,
that moment we are closed cause our classis just next to each other,
we always stay in school n go to cc together,
n shes quite good in counter strike hahaks!
we studied in the same schl till form 5,
we have something in commom which is.....ever pak toh with same guy..
hahaha yah im talking bout petrus here...
an old story where i hv vanish it long2 time ago...
now memek study at masterskill(same as mine) but diff campus..
she is in cheras...
hehehek turn to 20 today huh mek?
not much had change in her,
just that now she look much2 prettier than before n fairer( jealous i)
hahaks =P currenlty she be with our old fren oso..
such a loving couple la mek..(but this one i wont jealous) =D
ok ok hope this blessed day bring u more luck hehehe
nothing to gv but if u around this mmnt,i will hug u thightly hohoho
once again,happy birthday gal!!
me larf you =)

♥ cinta n me ♥

finally...
i put our pic here...
might not handsome like my ex...
might not rich like others bf...
might not special like other guy...
but handsome,or rich doesnt really matter anymore...
cause love above all things...
we love each other,thats more than enough...
pple might laugh at me this mmnt for choosing u...
but who cares?they wont be thre when i need them...
they wont listen to me when i feel sad...
they wont love me like how u love me...
n that makes u diff from them...
3 years to study...
after that i will expose myself to working environment...
after that we settle down...
im enjoying myself to being love by u...
i wanna grow old with u...
i wanna die lying in ur arms...
forever stay in ur arms...
we fought,we quarrel,we cried,
all those mess will makes us stronger...
see the joy u bring to my life...
every night b4 we go to bed,n wake up in the morning,we gv thanks to god
for all his blessing towards us...
thanks be to god...
for i found u in my life...
cherish this love love rltnship so much darl...

::pizza hut moment::

these are the days =P
where we went out for dinner..
pizza hut moment hehehe
when im leaving,i will surely miss this moment..
see that princess hannah...
looks so innocent n sweet..
everybody seems enjoy the dinner...
love all of u...
thanks a lot ee jenn...

♥ the part of the list ♥

they're part of the list,things that i miss,and i need ::

1)my faith in god n myself
2)the love for my family n him
3)the strength to face all the difficulties when im far from them
4)my stinky pillow
5)new bedsheet n blanket
6)fav jeans n tees
7)diary n colourful stabilo's pen
8)spongebob pillow
9)paracetamol & clarinase
10)phone charger & vicks
11)thousands of tissue
12)bible n xmas songs in cd
13)photo album
14)new toothbrush,shampoo,pail,brush
15)can i bring him along?(this is the lucky date =P )
16)how i wish i can bring the water heater n aircond too..
17)house slipper n umbrella
18)eumora soap for cleasing face
20)treksuit,two white tees,sport shoes

::short list for my coming soon study..hmmm stress when i hv to short listed it..::

...happy 10th anniversary yellow fellow...

hey yellow fellow =)
its been 10 years i love u n adore u(i mean it)
i hv collected few stuff that hv ur pic on it
such as t-shirt,purse,big size sponge,medium size spongebob,small size spongebob,lil small size spongebob,keychain,necklace,shoes,bag,tissue holder n so on..
the whole fam love u,
the whole fam adore u,
n me,im soooo crazy bout u!
looking n searching for spongebob bed sheet
hihihik =) all the best to u spongie boogie..
i will always love ya..
xoxo

...not a very good starting...

after chit chat with hubby for 2 hours n a half,
its around 1 something n we decided to sleep...
he sounds sleepy,guess he is tired today...
i guess that he is sleeping ody,
but me,i cant sleep,keep forcing myself to fall asleep...
this is unusual but just let time tell me what is it...
early morning,when i woke up,rcved a mgs from unrecognize num...
its weird when i woke up,usually hubby's msg is the one i owest rcvd,
yah then the weird num is hubby,
he said that his fon was stolen,that hppen while he sleepin...
it dont make sense cause WHY SHUD U STEAL MY BF'S FON?!
haih...i feel pissed off but ubby seems relax...
that is him,always cool no mtr what hppn...
i called my mother in law(in future) tell her bout this bad news,
n she feels pissed off too,im sure she worried bout him,
this mess can makes them fighting with each other...
hubby said he will get a new fon this noon...
it such a waste for me cause haih entah lah...
another insidence hppen ystrday noon,
i was sleeping when my fon ringging several times,
i did not answer the 1st n 2nd calls,the 3rd calls awake me halfly =P
its weird when a girl called me and ask weather i knw cordelia or cornelia something like that,i dont listen to her cause while she talking she keep on laughing,
i told her i dont knw who is the person that she mention,n i shut the phone,
again she called me after few minutes with diff num,
she ask me weather i knw roland or not...hmmmm
i ask her bck which roland n yes she mention the full name
its weird when she ask me what is the rltnship btween me n him,
only then i can guess that red devil's gf called me...
i totally didnt agree with what she did...
cause in the 1st place she sholud ask red devil not me...
lazy to continue the story let me myself knw nia...
the moral vlue from the story is....
hv faith in each other,thats the key...
if u dun trust ur loved ones,the rltnship wont go anywhre,
it will collapse one day...
*tiffy not in a good mood*

imhisfavouritebeaver

recently,we keep talking bout beaver(memerang)
day n night bout memerang haha
then one sunny day,i do some silly face n capture it,
then i realize,that look(pic above) looks like one of those...
i sent it to hubby(ambek kau)
n he said i did not look like a beaver to him,
but i look like a piggie instead,
apu...heheh but i kinda like it cause i like pig hihi
n he is totally shock heard i love pig..
cute ba kn?hehehe
yet he still said that pink piggie looks cute but not the black version of piggie..
i keep on laughing cause what he said is totally true =D
notty hubb..hihihik
he said beaver looks like a cat
hmmmm but i think looks like a pig...
no mttr what,hehehe beaver is beaver,
pig is pig,meanwhile cat is cat =)

...happy 1st monthsary hubby...

this are my handmade vdeo =)
haha got no idea on what to give to hubby..
since this is our 1st monthsary i think its too early to gv him present..haha
so i create this simple vdeo for him...
simple but i love(cause i do it myself of course i love it) =P
dear hubb,i hope that all the days that we will face,
it might contain triumph n disaster,
laughter n tears,
good n the bad,
hope that we will always stick together,
share the same umbrella hihihik
always hv faith in each other,
by then we will build a happy family together darl,
with 2 kids(in planning) hahaha
live this live in average mode(no need to be so rich)
as long as i have u by my side,
n in god's will,we'll make it together...
*tiffy is in a happy mode today*
=) love u so much george..